Monday, December 15, 2008

My Shoes

My Shoes - Author Unknown

I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in other’s eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some people are like me and ache daily as they try to walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so that they don’t hurt quite so much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.
No one deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a mother who has lost a child.


I hope to one day say I am a stronger woman because of these shoes and the experiences that go along with them, to say I have been given the strength to face anything. I have to know who I am before I can attribute that knowledge to these shoes. One day I'll walk in these shoes. Today however, I'm just learning to stand in them.

1 comment:

  1. Tara, my heart aches for you. I can only get "close" to what you're feeling as I've walked in my own similar types of shoes. I don't lessen your pain of walking in your shoes, but know that one day, you will look back and see how far you've come. It's been said that "Time Heals All Wounds", I don't believe that, I believe that Jesus Heals Wounds. You will still see the wounds, you will still know what caused the wounds, but there will be no more pain or bitterness or tears or heartache associated with the wounds. You are loved and supported, even on those days you don't feel it!!

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